April 20, 2007


I figured it was hightime to get into gear and finally post something. Of course, I've been thinking this way for the past three weeks, but now I finally have something to post.

My mom came a while back (no, this isn't the thing that gave me reason to write, but I figured I'd catch everyone up). It was grand having her here and seeing my weekday routines. Although, I could have gone without her pointing out to me that I waste a lot of time, but hey, she was here saying it in person instead of doing it over the phone.

Well, later that week was my audition/platform to get into the Masters program here for Dramatic Productions. How do you think it went? Well, I had prepared my actors so much (4 times we met for 2 hours), that they didn't need direction during the "platform". Apparently, they needed to be less polished, so I could direct so the board could actually see my work. The day before I had turned in some paperwork, an analysis of the play from which the scene was chosen (Cherry Orchard, but I didn't have a choice on what play to pick from), a list of theater experience (when and what), a floor plan of the scene (showing where everything is in the room), and a paper on the roles and limitations of the Christian in theater. I found out after the fact that they needed to see me direct to see my style of directing, I needed to have more sources in my papers because what I gave them wasn't worthy of someone entering the grad program, and I "just didn't fit".


The whole reason I came to BJU in the first place was because of the theater program here, and now I'm not allowed to study it. The door was slammed shut when he said, "We are praying that you see this closed door as an opportunity to explore the other paths God may have for you." So, I'm taking that to mean, "Not only can you not get your Masters in Theater here, but you can't get any kind of degree in Theater here."

So I met with the HR lady to see what was happening with my scholarship, and she didn't know, so she pointed me to an academic savvy advisor, and he was thrown off when his secratary said a "sam" was coming up and he was expecting a guy. So he asked for a few days to research the situation and see what avenues were open to me. I met with him again and left with a list of possiblities, all of which will take me 2 and 1/2 years or more to complete.

And I have no idea what to do.

I could get a Masters in Personnel Services (a guidance couselor, of sorts), Elemetary Ed (I would get my teaching credential), Secondary ed (I wouldn't get my teaching credentail), the "everyone's doing it" road of Counseling, or I could get a second under-grad degree. I'm leaning toward the "take-random-classes-till-contract-is-up" road, but I've got friends pointing toward the El ed thing.

I just really don't know what to do. I've never had a definite plan for what I wanted to do when I got out of college. My perfect future job changes with the weather, it seems, so for me to have a definite thing I want to pursue is non-existent. I have no idea what road to take because they all look pretty much the same. At least I was interested in Theater, and probably always will be, but I don't have the "A+" drive to get what I want (ie. grades and commitmant). I have the desire to make the lives of the people around me a little better and less stressful, but that really isn't a career path.

I'm stuck and I don't know where to go.

Posted by Fae at 11:38 AM