February 12, 2005

changes

My life is full of changes right now. The other day I was having a very hard time accepting all of them, and bemoaning the fact that I had to start letting go of all I had held dear and the things that were comfortable and familiar. I expressed this to a very kind and wise person and was roundly rebuked at her answer.

"Sometimes it's really hard to move forward when the place you are is so
comfortable, but God doesn't particularly want us to be comfortable. If we are
for too long we get complacent and become useless to Him and to ourselves. He wants us to keep stretching and growing.

I wonder at times what He has in store for you.....what are your desires, your
passions, your goals for God? Are you going to be a teacher, a missionary, a
businesswoman? What direction is it that He is pointing you in? Have you
thought much about those things? Probably you've thought about them a lot but haven't come to any conclusions yet. I pray for you every day, that God will give you His direction and open His plan to you."

She also told me told me something that someone told her once. How do you drive a parked car? How can God direct me and lead me if I am not moving in ANY direction? If I am moving, at least He can open and close doors, direct me in the way He chooses. But no, I am being stubborn and sitting in my parked car thinking I have everything I need right there. God isn't taking things away from me, as I thought. He is pushing me into movement. He is kicking out my crutches and guiding me. And I had never thought of it that way. I was sitting in my little world feeling sorry for little me cause I wasn't getting what I wanted and loosing what I did want, and then He sent me an angel of mercy to gently remind me that He loves me and wants what is best for me. He wants His best, not mine.

And that is the exciting part. My best is so piddly and sorry compared to His wonderful Best. His Best involves Him. I am getting nervous, and excited to see what He has in store for me. Please pray with me as I start my car and put it in drive. I don't know what direction I will be taking, a few hints but nothing clear. I think this will be one big step of faith into nothing I know as familiar, but as eMom said, "It's like a big adventure and the tour guide is the Lord!"

Posted by hill at February 12, 2005 01:04 AM
Comments

Similar situation here. I'm suddenly finding my life thrown up into the air . . . and what to do next is unsure and at times, scary. Thanks for the encouragement - nothing is a mistake with our God.

Posted by: Shanna at February 12, 2005 05:11 PM

i love you hill

Posted by: gwen at February 12, 2005 11:21 PM

Hill, this was such an encouragement to me. I pray for you-something I probably don't tell you nearly often enough. Love you much.

Posted by: heidi at February 12, 2005 11:53 PM

This is indeed an encouragement, so I thank you--AND eMom!!! That vivid illustration will stick witrh me for a long time, I think, and hopefully come to mind each time I'm tempted to park my car for anything longer than a bathroom break ;o)

Posted by: jen d at February 14, 2005 10:31 AM

Tell me about changes!! :) We're all still hear for ya hill!! My week-end was a whirlwind! WOW.. anyway THANKS A TON for your help on monday.. *wink*wink* E-mail me sometime!

Posted by: ethan at February 17, 2005 10:31 AM
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