My life is full of changes right now. The other day I was having a very hard time accepting all of them, and bemoaning the fact that I had to start letting go of all I had held dear and the things that were comfortable and familiar. I expressed this to a very kind and wise person and was roundly rebuked at her answer.
"Sometimes it's really hard to move forward when the place you are is so
comfortable, but God doesn't particularly want us to be comfortable. If we are
for too long we get complacent and become useless to Him and to ourselves. He wants us to keep stretching and growing.
I wonder at times what He has in store for you.....what are your desires, your
passions, your goals for God? Are you going to be a teacher, a missionary, a
businesswoman? What direction is it that He is pointing you in? Have you
thought much about those things? Probably you've thought about them a lot but haven't come to any conclusions yet. I pray for you every day, that God will give you His direction and open His plan to you."
She also told me told me something that someone told her once. How do you drive a parked car? How can God direct me and lead me if I am not moving in ANY direction? If I am moving, at least He can open and close doors, direct me in the way He chooses. But no, I am being stubborn and sitting in my parked car thinking I have everything I need right there. God isn't taking things away from me, as I thought. He is pushing me into movement. He is kicking out my crutches and guiding me. And I had never thought of it that way. I was sitting in my little world feeling sorry for little me cause I wasn't getting what I wanted and loosing what I did want, and then He sent me an angel of mercy to gently remind me that He loves me and wants what is best for me. He wants His best, not mine.
And that is the exciting part. My best is so piddly and sorry compared to His wonderful Best. His Best involves Him. I am getting nervous, and excited to see what He has in store for me. Please pray with me as I start my car and put it in drive. I don't know what direction I will be taking, a few hints but nothing clear. I think this will be one big step of faith into nothing I know as familiar, but as eMom said, "It's like a big adventure and the tour guide is the Lord!"