finding him, surprising
him by accident, purchasing books
for Christmas that I never read, because I married.
I am an idiot mind, keeping what I have,
having lost the truth of my self-
preservation.
to the years I see
standing on the boards of your
relatives.
Speaking to the trees from the elevation of our deck.
know your genetic hi
story?
I do.
Knot enough
two, see clearly
one life.
Still-moving lives
genetics wearing
we or me,
obliged to know
you, friend. Our
children seated thus.
the remainder of blank
pages in a
book
what of
the fulness
of all that came before
remainder of in
all that came
remainder of in: all that came of that
She showed me two x-rays
and told her story: The crushing game,
months of procrastination, the surgeon's plan,
her agreement to have a titanium joint, her
hearing the nerve
would
hurt coming back
to life.
Her pictures calmed her
inactivity, her warm fire
in a cozy room, her eyes
full of fatigue and grand-
children, children's stories,
a friend's
recovery.
bond failure in success,
as remnants of disaster
open poet eyes shut?
To waken acquaintance,
quiet, mourning father
dead, mother living, will
die again.
I don't hear / the forest growing / just| expands / creek yawning| one / rending storm
Why were the red / woods allowed / to| keep growing
magnetic fire dust
flinging to the moon
each twisting curl
"When you look at me, I feel
there is more worry in your heart than there
is confidence, and it weighs down on me."
hear you