Dressed badge stuck on the Christmas tree, I sit with the name From. ______________________________My sweater after [I] put it on Unable To leave the house Alpine Way is long and cold, Dark with neighbors Five Open Houses Go replied To Go, received a happy name. Tag did not, Go not wanting To._______________________________________Walk alone if [I] were single, Would Have Gone, think Were, not A Christian in Greenville, [I] Would Have Gone. think [I], because I am married, because I am Christian [—/no—]Because, I AM. [me]Because, A coward. To Go alone. Why did I not/ask the neighbors beside me, Why did I not think to go along with them?/[[I must begin thinking like a single, and I must begin thinking like A non-Christian/]]caught up in the joys of being/down here in the streets/where we live./I don't know how to be neighborly/without____________________________being/homeless./long and cold and dark cliche/just/go _________________together./I know Jesus/is here, because both light/and dark are unto Him./I want light,/but maybe, I just want to be able/to see Jesus,/and the inside/of the neighbors' houses/that were open thirty minutes ago,/I_______________am/such_______________________an/idiot./]] Had I arranged in a friendly way with a neighbor/to go tonight, I would have still dreaded the event. It would have been like/laboring without a joy child. Dear God, Jesus Christ, why am I A stillbirth?/You/are so hard/to face, you people./Just/Like/Me./I_________________ cannot/and do not stand/facing_______________ myself./I cannot face/you and know what I am./I am only you./And you are A stranger./Again,/Jesus Christ,/what is this with my name on it stuck to the Christmas tree?
Posted by nancy at December 10, 2009 08:27 PM