in the scent
net his cent
innocent
1 see me
and see my mother hating
my father, and hating her mother, who was
hated by her in-laws,
my father hating his father hating
his mother and himself.
1 see me
and see my hatred of my mother hating
my father, who is like me, like me, like me,
hating the fixing, fixing, fixing, fixed viewing
of me, me, me, me, him, her hating me.
1 see me
and see my husband hating me, his wife, hating
who 1 was and who 1 am, my husband hating his
life, his life, his life, so much good, so much good,
so much good and rich and abundance, and he hated it all.
1 see me
and hate who 1 am for my ineffective life giving no person
1 have loved any degree of lasting happiness. 1 hate who 1
am.
When did 1
come to see as hatred?
When did 1
come to see coping as
hatred?